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So, I have not been on in awhile. My lack of logging on is directly related to my lack of dieting and doing well. It sucks. Here I am again, failing. Such a familular road that I do not want to travel down. I need to get back on track! I suppose there is no time like the present. I am getting married in 5 months. I do not want to be this heavy when I get married! I have to do something about this now. I want to be down to 130 but I dont really think that can happen now that my date gets closer and closer and I dont loose any weight. 40lbs in 5 months. Highly unlikely. I suppose I can shoot for just getting lighter than I am now. Any pound loss will be a positive!

I was doing great for it being my first week really trying to lose weight and workout. Then, Friday came. My dad called and asked me to go for a hamburger at a place we always use to go. Their burgers are too die for-two patties, cheese, pepperoni, Canadian bacon, salami, onion, tomato, lettuce and sauce all between two huge fluffy white buns! Dad and I hadn’t hung out much anymore since we have both been so busy with life’s demands so I of course accepted his invitation fully knowing that I was going there with full intentions to each that huge burger- not just a measly salad or something that would get me to my goal. Knowing that I would later regret my decision, I chowed down that burger and fries smothered in ranch dressing and washed it all down with a few glasses of beer. What was I thinking! Sure great while it lasted. Later that night my fiancé and I went out dancing. It has been before I had my son since we have gone out dancing.  He was dancing with another girl, which is usually okay with me. We dance with other people and have no jealousy. We both know the limits. That night I got absolutely irate. Him dancing with someone else all of a sudden was not okay with me. After analyzing this it is all because of how I see myself. I am now nearly 40lbs over weight. I wasn’t before when we use to go out. My fat is not only hurting me but also hurting my relationship since it all turned into a huge argument.

Saturday facing the scale, not so great but I was back on track. I ate good and worked out and tried to drink as much water as possible to flush out some fat and excess water from all the sodium. I didn’t do to bad Sunday either. I ate really good to start with and had to grab something fast for dinner and unfortunately made a bad decision with my 700+ calorie burrito from taco bell. There really should be a law against 700+ calorie items! The good news is that I worked out longer that day than I had any other day yet. I did an hr on the elliptical and went for about a qtr mile walk.

Today is going to be a great day. I dropped my 4 month old off this morning at my moms. I have been eyeing the cookies she had sitting out. I walked over to them this morning and thought about eating them. Thought a little harder and stepped away! I actually walked away from the cookies! Wow. Yes, I know it was only 6am but any other day before “the new me” I would have ate that cookie and probably six of its friends too. J

I love Mondays. It feels like a clean star to a new week. So far, so good. I wish everyone the best this week!

So I have got on the scale the last few mornings. Waiting for the number to go down. I step off and get on it again, just incase it might give me a different read. I am sure I am not the only one who does this. It is holding strong at 165.5. I guess not moving at all is better than it going up though, right?

I passed up fastfood last night when my bf decided that he wanted to go there. I had my order all in my head and when I got up to the window. I didn’t order a thing. I just let him get what he wanted and I pushed on through! It was so difficult. It is so much more momentarily gratifying to eat that deep fried whatever. I have to start thinking long term though. I could have ate that and been happy for about 10 min. Afterwards felt horrible and in the long run of things felt really horrible when my weight never comes off. It’s different this go-round. I AM DOING THIS. I AM IN FOR THE LONG HAUL!!!

Today is a new day. Make each and every bite count!!! Good luck to everyone going into the weekend!

So my day yesterday was a little hectic. I have Wednesdays off since I work 4 -10’s. It’s usually a great day with my 4 month old and when he sleep I can clean… or in yesterdays case, I had planned to workout on the elliptical. Boy was I wrong! He was sooooo cranky yesterday. Nothing got accomplished! No house cleaning and no workout and barely had time to eat anything but a 1/2 sandwich. So, after a day like that, I was starving and tired. I decided I didn’t want to cook and decided to go out to dinner. I had it all planned- I would get what I got last time when I was dieting. So, we get there and I flip open the menu and they have taken my great diet meal off! Grrrrrr. So, I ended up eating way over my total calories for the day and didn’t even workout! I have got to get it in to gear today!

I am taking the advice of a buddy who took the advice of a buddy…. and am going to try to blog often.

I am so far off to a great start. It hasn’t been a week yet but I feel like I am finally back on track. After the past 4 months of starting and stopping and starting and stopping, I think I finally have it. You just feel it when you are ready and motivated.

The first week of a diet I always loose a lot of weight. I’m sure a lot of it has to do with the water weight as well as loosing the huge meal I had the day before the diet. Either way, I will take the loss! I just hope when the losing slows down that my motivation and desire to lose speeds up.

My biggest motivation right now that is keeping me going is know that I am getting married in July. I want to look beautiful in my dress and feel great. I can’t imagine how I would feel in my dress at my current weight. That is why I have to do this now. I have to stay postive and on track. It is so hard at times! 

Today was day 1 of the diet. I did okay. Had nachos at night though. I got my eliptical machine and had my first home workout

30 min eliptical

464.3 calories burned

1761=distance

Food Log

Exercise Log

Today was Day 2 of my diet. I did good in the morning. We had to go to a pizza parlor for a bday party. I told myself I would have salad. I ended up eating the salad, two pieces of pizza and if that wasnt enough, cake too! I wish I had more willpower!

I got on the eliptical for 30 min. 465 calories, distance =1780 

Food Log

Exercise Log